This is REAL. This is ME.

elo gjoy,

selamat tengahari.. sejuk sgt2 kat epot.. huhuhu.. thank god tok adalah hari terakhir keja di epot utk selama2nya.. rasanya la.. mungkin sempat gik ujung bulan tok.. arghhhh.. tidakkkkkk.. tp depends la dgn surat tawaran ya.. bila repot duty.. I HAVE MADE MY DECISION.. I will take the offer as Leftenan Maritim.. DONE.. sik maok rasa menyesal.. I will Love MY JOB as leftenan.. hihihihi.. rasa besar jak dirik.. kekekeke.. enof said.. i will write resignation letter once surat tawaran sampey.. JOY, no turning back k..

Topik sekarang masih lagi berkaitrapat dengan keputusan meninggalkan tourism malaysia.. hurmm.. actually.. blum padah ngan sidak opiz pun.. tp rasanya sidak tauk sebab dlm shout ada hint sikit2.. kak amy ada nanyak ira ari ya pasal maok tukar keja tp irna cover sik tauk.. hihihi.. bagus irna.. klak la padah ngan sidak masa meeting or next gathering tp tunggu surat tawaran ya sampey.. klak malu diri sendiri sebab website SPA ya salah key in data, nama sebenarnya sikda dapat jawatan leftenan ya.. kan malu kan diri sendiri.. so better nanti jak la padah..

Tp sedih sgt tgglkan kuching.. byk memori, kawan2.. huhuhuhu..

gjoy

to be continued..

Rumah Bau Belacan

Hi gjoy..

genap 12 hari berpuasa.. sik terasa jak.. hihihihi.. so many things happen so puasa sik brapa gilak terasa.. tahniah gjoy....

but, tension kadang2 sebab one of the house kat rumah sewa di skygarden bukak tmpt proses belacan.. aduhhh.. maok termuntah jak kalo cium bau nya.. mula2 ingat bau bangkei anjing tp rupanya bau belacan.. dah la rumah tmpt polah belacan ya kotor nak mampus.. yukssss... siapa la beli belacan sia mesti sakit perut..

sakit jiwa raga, siang malam bau belacan.. bukan maok sombong. makan juak belacan tp bolehkah buat tmpt proses belacan di kawasan perumahan.. menganggu ketenteraman awam.. huhuhuh..

satu gik, pasal kebersihan.. kotor la rumah ya.. anjing lagi.. sampah gik,, bodoh pnya manusia buat makanan di kawasan yg kotor.. rasanya maok repot kat DBKU jak..

hurm.. dats it..

nanti sambung jap lagi.. sejukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk kat epot...

huhuhuhu..

bye gjoy..

Agensi Maritim VS Tourism Malaysia

elo gjoy..

Huh.. dah dapat result SPA untuk leftenan maritim ari jumaat ya.. surprisingly dapat the jawatan.. hihihi.. jawatan leftenan maritim.. tp blum dpt surat tawaran la..

buat masa sekarang mcm ada rasa maok pi or sik.. sebab dolok blajar tinggi tourism management pasya tiba2 keja kat agensi maritim, which is jauh sekali dari my bidang.. mcm langit dan bumi.. furthermore, minat ka keja ya??

Tp kebaikan nya, gaji lumayan jugak la.. hihihihi.. dpt cover sikit blanja..

Nangga la mcmney klak..

kalo ada rezki pi la.. kalo sikda.. keja la dgn tourism malaysia opiz kuching..

bye gjoy..

mati kesejukan di airport..

SAVE ME..

bbbbbbbbbbbbbb... save me!!! hurrrryyyy.. before am dead and gone.. :((((((((((((((((((

Bukan Cerita Cinta..

Elo gjoy,

Ini BUKAN cerita CINTA.. Kalo ini cerita CINTA, i will surely tell u, mereka hidup happily ever after, respect each other, appreciate each other, take care each other, love each other and the list goes on.. Paling penting, they will have each other until the end of time..

Tapi, Cinta bukan seindah seperti yang disangka.. hurm.. paling seksa sekali kalo ditinggalkan cinta.. aduhh.. sakit tidak terkata.. bayangkan minggu pertama, kita akan sentiasa ingat the memories, the song, the activities and everything.. Tp kadang2 best gak kalo patah hati, selera makan completely tertutup.. mmg sikda akan rasa maok mamam.. tp rasa haus sgt2.. mungkin sebab sikda mamam ya kita rasa haus jak.. hihihi..

YESSS... I see my soulmate.. hihihihi.. I am U.. but once ur so called soulmate break ur heart.. kita akan tiba2 rasa clueless.. malam sik pat tido, airmata akan jatuh mcm ujan jak.. trus akan terfikir, wat about the plan?? the holiday?? the house?? the movies?? the songs?? suma akan fade away.. how could ur soulmate break ur heart?? its impossible but its true..

If it ever happen to u again joy (which rasa takut sgt perasaan tok) the first week will be hard for u, akan pegang hanfon 24/7 hoping nya akan call or sms like nya used to do.. rasa sedey with all the lovey dovey songs.. JOY.. jgn sedey2 lagi k.. everything happens for a reason.. cari keja utk mend ur heart.. listen to songs.. masak.. i knoe sik pat mamam tp cuba jak mamam.. step by step.. u knoe kan.. time will heals everything..

JOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY, jgn berharap lagi dgn sumthin that surely wont happen.. just berhenti berharap.. move on.. YESSSSSSSSSS.. i knoe its very very very hard.. but joy, what else can u do?? hanya dapat berhenti mengharap..

jaga diri baik2 gjoy, hati2 driving.. walaupun fikiran kosong but just be extra careful.. sila la bertahan.. cuma couple of weeks to go, u will be fine again and akan teringat owh.. cuma mimpi.. hilang semua rasa sedey.. and recharge urself...

bye gjoy..

Day 4.. Gjoy San..

hi gjoy..

dah masuk hari keempat.. hurm.. skrg sik la brapa sedey gilak.. tp kadang ada juak dtg rasa sedey tp sik seteruk hari pertama or kedua.. sekarang dah calmer and more relax.. apa yg terjadi sik dpt dielakkan.. seriouslly.. sik salahkan siapa??

wrong place, wrong time, wrong situation.. salahkan keadaan sebab sik mengizinkan.. my god, how i wish i can turn back the time.. adjust apa2 yg patut supaya ending nya sik mcm tok.. tp sik dpt.. fikir diri di tempatnya.. kadang sian kat nya.. sorg2 kat kl.. tauk rasa lonely sgt.. so jalan terbaik adalah itu..

hati rasa berat sgt mau terima tp apa kan daya.. huhuhuh.. insya allah, minggu depan bulan depan ok la ya..

hati rasa berdebar2 juak tunggu result leftenan maritim ya.. kalo ada rezki mesti dpt.. kalo sikda pun sik hal.. keja ngan tourism malaysia pun best.. dpt jalan2.. tp kalo dpt takut juak.. rasa maok pi or sik.. wallah waalam.. nagga jak ujung bulan tok.. sik sabar sebenarnya..

ok la joy.. klak gik sambung.. polah documentation utk group russia esok..

p.s: still wonderin apa nya polah on the other side.. rasa pelik sebab nya mesti call tnya kabar mcm dolok2.. how i wish nya call.. :((((((

bye gjoy..

MOVE ON..

Now, you LOVE me And I love u..
Used to JUMP in the VIVA and ROLL out..
Used to CARE and you USED to SHARE
The love you Used to GIVE to me Cant Be Found..
I LOST my WAY and you SAID you STAY

That was BEFORE a great DEPRESSION kicked IN and ROCKED us
and That was BEFORE the HURRICANE came IN and STOPPED us

I told you to LEAVE but you LIED to me
when you SAID that
"Baby No Worries, I Promised to get us BACK"

I know Sorry just wouldn't DO it,
My Heart is OBLITERATED, I'm tryin
I am Trying B
But Its Like MOVING Mountain..

But I keep on CLIMBING and hoping things would CHANGE
but the SKY turns GREY and the WATER from the RAIN washes progress AWAY
Its Like MOVING MOUNTAIN..

Why you just LEAVE me??
Just LEAVE me be..

DON'T Touch me and I don't TOUCH you
We really EVEN NEVER say A WORD
I really WANT to GIVE you EVERYTHING that YOU deserve
But You think I'm FULL of IT
ARGUMENT, ALWAYS PISSED. B, am Tired
Every KISS i Missed You know Am TRYING

You NEVER believe when I SAY
I NEVER believe when you SAY
"I LOVE U"
I should TAKE it Like A Man and WALK about IT
cause We will NEVER be the SAME
I would be Standing in GAS and You would be the FLAME
got to move THIS MOUNTAIN

This must be the SLOW DEATH that I'm Traveling ON
It Feels so WRONG and am barely HOLDING ON
see no MATTER what it TAKES, I got to KEEp it TOGETHER
you ain't showing me the LOVE and
am down on my LOVE

am still wondering
WHY u leave me??