Agensi Maritim VS Tourism Malaysia

elo gjoy..

Huh.. dah dapat result SPA untuk leftenan maritim ari jumaat ya.. surprisingly dapat the jawatan.. hihihi.. jawatan leftenan maritim.. tp blum dpt surat tawaran la..

buat masa sekarang mcm ada rasa maok pi or sik.. sebab dolok blajar tinggi tourism management pasya tiba2 keja kat agensi maritim, which is jauh sekali dari my bidang.. mcm langit dan bumi.. furthermore, minat ka keja ya??

Tp kebaikan nya, gaji lumayan jugak la.. hihihihi.. dpt cover sikit blanja..

Nangga la mcmney klak..

kalo ada rezki pi la.. kalo sikda.. keja la dgn tourism malaysia opiz kuching..

bye gjoy..

mati kesejukan di airport..

SAVE ME..

bbbbbbbbbbbbbb... save me!!! hurrrryyyy.. before am dead and gone.. :((((((((((((((((((

Bukan Cerita Cinta..

Elo gjoy,

Ini BUKAN cerita CINTA.. Kalo ini cerita CINTA, i will surely tell u, mereka hidup happily ever after, respect each other, appreciate each other, take care each other, love each other and the list goes on.. Paling penting, they will have each other until the end of time..

Tapi, Cinta bukan seindah seperti yang disangka.. hurm.. paling seksa sekali kalo ditinggalkan cinta.. aduhh.. sakit tidak terkata.. bayangkan minggu pertama, kita akan sentiasa ingat the memories, the song, the activities and everything.. Tp kadang2 best gak kalo patah hati, selera makan completely tertutup.. mmg sikda akan rasa maok mamam.. tp rasa haus sgt2.. mungkin sebab sikda mamam ya kita rasa haus jak.. hihihi..

YESSS... I see my soulmate.. hihihihi.. I am U.. but once ur so called soulmate break ur heart.. kita akan tiba2 rasa clueless.. malam sik pat tido, airmata akan jatuh mcm ujan jak.. trus akan terfikir, wat about the plan?? the holiday?? the house?? the movies?? the songs?? suma akan fade away.. how could ur soulmate break ur heart?? its impossible but its true..

If it ever happen to u again joy (which rasa takut sgt perasaan tok) the first week will be hard for u, akan pegang hanfon 24/7 hoping nya akan call or sms like nya used to do.. rasa sedey with all the lovey dovey songs.. JOY.. jgn sedey2 lagi k.. everything happens for a reason.. cari keja utk mend ur heart.. listen to songs.. masak.. i knoe sik pat mamam tp cuba jak mamam.. step by step.. u knoe kan.. time will heals everything..

JOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY, jgn berharap lagi dgn sumthin that surely wont happen.. just berhenti berharap.. move on.. YESSSSSSSSSS.. i knoe its very very very hard.. but joy, what else can u do?? hanya dapat berhenti mengharap..

jaga diri baik2 gjoy, hati2 driving.. walaupun fikiran kosong but just be extra careful.. sila la bertahan.. cuma couple of weeks to go, u will be fine again and akan teringat owh.. cuma mimpi.. hilang semua rasa sedey.. and recharge urself...

bye gjoy..

Day 4.. Gjoy San..

hi gjoy..

dah masuk hari keempat.. hurm.. skrg sik la brapa sedey gilak.. tp kadang ada juak dtg rasa sedey tp sik seteruk hari pertama or kedua.. sekarang dah calmer and more relax.. apa yg terjadi sik dpt dielakkan.. seriouslly.. sik salahkan siapa??

wrong place, wrong time, wrong situation.. salahkan keadaan sebab sik mengizinkan.. my god, how i wish i can turn back the time.. adjust apa2 yg patut supaya ending nya sik mcm tok.. tp sik dpt.. fikir diri di tempatnya.. kadang sian kat nya.. sorg2 kat kl.. tauk rasa lonely sgt.. so jalan terbaik adalah itu..

hati rasa berat sgt mau terima tp apa kan daya.. huhuhuh.. insya allah, minggu depan bulan depan ok la ya..

hati rasa berdebar2 juak tunggu result leftenan maritim ya.. kalo ada rezki mesti dpt.. kalo sikda pun sik hal.. keja ngan tourism malaysia pun best.. dpt jalan2.. tp kalo dpt takut juak.. rasa maok pi or sik.. wallah waalam.. nagga jak ujung bulan tok.. sik sabar sebenarnya..

ok la joy.. klak gik sambung.. polah documentation utk group russia esok..

p.s: still wonderin apa nya polah on the other side.. rasa pelik sebab nya mesti call tnya kabar mcm dolok2.. how i wish nya call.. :((((((

bye gjoy..

MOVE ON..

Now, you LOVE me And I love u..
Used to JUMP in the VIVA and ROLL out..
Used to CARE and you USED to SHARE
The love you Used to GIVE to me Cant Be Found..
I LOST my WAY and you SAID you STAY

That was BEFORE a great DEPRESSION kicked IN and ROCKED us
and That was BEFORE the HURRICANE came IN and STOPPED us

I told you to LEAVE but you LIED to me
when you SAID that
"Baby No Worries, I Promised to get us BACK"

I know Sorry just wouldn't DO it,
My Heart is OBLITERATED, I'm tryin
I am Trying B
But Its Like MOVING Mountain..

But I keep on CLIMBING and hoping things would CHANGE
but the SKY turns GREY and the WATER from the RAIN washes progress AWAY
Its Like MOVING MOUNTAIN..

Why you just LEAVE me??
Just LEAVE me be..

DON'T Touch me and I don't TOUCH you
We really EVEN NEVER say A WORD
I really WANT to GIVE you EVERYTHING that YOU deserve
But You think I'm FULL of IT
ARGUMENT, ALWAYS PISSED. B, am Tired
Every KISS i Missed You know Am TRYING

You NEVER believe when I SAY
I NEVER believe when you SAY
"I LOVE U"
I should TAKE it Like A Man and WALK about IT
cause We will NEVER be the SAME
I would be Standing in GAS and You would be the FLAME
got to move THIS MOUNTAIN

This must be the SLOW DEATH that I'm Traveling ON
It Feels so WRONG and am barely HOLDING ON
see no MATTER what it TAKES, I got to KEEp it TOGETHER
you ain't showing me the LOVE and
am down on my LOVE

am still wondering
WHY u leave me??

Day 2.. Gjoy San..

elo gjoy again..

still sad.. yeah.. baru beberapa hari.. so masih sedey teramat sgt.. sik tauk maok polah apa udah.. dahla keja ari tok pasya posa gik.. huhuhuhu..

sedeyy.......... :(((((((((((((( wat should i do..

masa kat epot mcm lambat jak.. sekarang baru pukul 130 ptg.. my god.. lama btul masa berlalu.. kalo dolok sik mcm tok masa berlalu.. sekarang kalo kita sedey.. lama btul masa berlalu.. nasib gak la selera mamam pun kurang udah sekarang, so puasa sik la memenatkan.. cuma rasa sedey jak..

Ya Allah, cepatlah pergi rasa tok...

Sejuk sgt2 kat epot. sik tahan..

bye gjoy... :(((((((((

SAVE MY SOUL.... HELP..

Gjoy..

wats wrong... dah la ya.. buat pa maok sedey2 gik.. pleazzzzzz...

sik dpt la.. still sedey.. dah la esok posa.. sepatutnya happy but am so sad ere..

cuba makan tadi.. goreng telur and minum green tea.. but dah abis mamam and angkat jak pinggan trus ke toilet.. rasa muak maok muntah.. sik pat mamam sekarang la.. rasa maok muntah..

Cepatla masa berlalu.. sik maok sedey2 gik...

esok keja d epot.. ok juak la.. sik la buhsan sgt masa posa..

S.O.S.. Sum1 HELPPPPP ME..

Day 1.. Gjoy San..

Hi gjoy..


1st day mmg paling susah sekali.. my god.. tuhan jak tauk btapa seksa nya badan dan fikiran.. tadi ada meeting pun mcm sik paham jak apa di padah boss.. duduk jak pun dlm bilit meeting.. dengar juak apa dipadah oleh sidak opiz pasal homestay hari raya la, cuti dibekukan la tp sikda rasa apa2 pun.. mcm dengar tp sik dengar.. pelik tp benar.. nangga muka staff yg lain tp mcm sikda emosi.. kak amy beri signal knp sedey masa meeting?? just try to smile tanpa menjatuhkan air mata... sedey2 sgt..

how I wish bley cerita kat shira, beat, ctot, a'a or irna.. but I cant.. this is very private.. kalo bagitauk mungkin sidak sik maok kawan lagik.. huhuhuhu.. sidak la paling baik sekali di dunia, selalu tnya jgn simpan dlm hati (Ya Allah, mmg sik pat simpan dlm hati, maok jak diluahkan semua.. sik pat ditanggung rasa sedey tp masalahnya I CANT) Then drive pi epot pun sikit gik accident.. tiba2 jak sik perasan ada kreta di depan.. Knp fikiran tiba2 rasa kosong..

Masa rasa sekarang pun tiba2 sik rasa lapar.. sik mamam pun dari smlm.. sik rasa lapar.. ada jak org padah, owh mengada2 sik maok mamam.. tp masalah nya sik lapar.. rasa maok muntah..

Paling takut rasa tok.. takut sgt2.. Ya Allah, tolonglah aku...

Huh.. Hidup mmg perlu diteruskan tp sekarang masih dlm keadaan terkejut, sedey ngan terkilan.. am supposed to be happy tp lain pulak jadinya..

Sik tahan rasa maok simpan rasa sedey tok tp terpaksa tipu ctot and beat 'dun worry, am ok' masalahnya AM NOT OK.. huhuhuhu..

...........

The Problem WITH LOVE.. huhuhu..

Love can be of many splendid things
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sail and fairy tails
It will make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It will fool you everytime

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesnt care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my worlds a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I'd swore I'd never love again

Swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Everytime I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin and I keep on falling
over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

WaT a SAD SUnday

Ok La.. Hari minggu yang menyedihkan.. Sepatutnya Hari yang menggembirakan semua org sebab org cuti and bawak anak bini jalan.. Tp ari tok rasa sedey sgt2.. dunno why.. Sumthin goes totally wrong today.. Hurm.. fikiran bercelaru ari tok.. sik tauk maok polah apa2.. sikda mood jak la ari tok.. huhuhuhu.. sedey sgt.. maok jak padah dlm blog tok.. tp mmg complicated sgt2..

Susah la.. maok padah.. TO BE or NOT TO BE.. huhuhuhu..

dah la esok ada kursus tarian ntah apa2 ya jak.. sebenarnya saja maok pi KL maok jalan2 tp lain pulak jadinya.. huhuhuhu... sedey...

LOVE HURTSS... dgr lagu kelly clarkson THE PROBLEM WITH LOVE dolok.. sedey sgt2..

Take care gjoy.. Time will heals u..

Just go esok.. dun u ever looks back...

LOVE GJOY (myself so much)

New Chapter Of My Life

hello gjoy...

So many THINGS happen Lately.. Sikda tmpt Untuk meluahkan.. So tulis kat BLOG la.. Bukan ada org baca pun.. I will write everything in my so called DIARY..

take care GJOY..